Member Stories

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Mon, 02/08/2016
FSPHP Member Stories
The Federation of State Physician Health Programs (FSPHP) has not only been a catalyst in increasing the presence and the face of physician health, but has been pivotal in the Colorado Physician Health Programs’ position in the sector. CPHP recognizes many benefits of the umbrella organization; best practice discussions on broader administrative (nonprofit) issues, quality improvement initiatives and inspiration, and unique perspectives on an industry that does not really “fit” into traditional...Read more
Mon, 02/01/2016
PHP Participant Stories
Oct. 12, 1988: DEA agents invaded my home in search of evidence regarding distribution of controlled substances. More than 70,000 doses were registered to me and not accounted for. That day was the first time I ever admitted (to the agents) that I was a drug addict. They had other ideas. This was the end of life as I knew it. My Pennsylvania medical license and DEA registration were suspended and revoked, as were hospital privileges. Felony charges were issued three years later. I had to stop...Read more
Sun, 01/31/2016
FSPHP Member Stories
I wish to reiterate my support for the Missouri Physicians Health Program and the graduates of that program. I have found the typical graduate, in my personal experience, to be hard working, conscientious, and eager for a second chance. The benefits they have brought to my organization and my patients have more than outweighed any inconvenience or fear of bad publicity their history might have posed. Whether or not such an individual is right for your organization is, of course, for you to say...Read more
Mon, 11/23/2015
PHP Participant Stories
When I was referred to the state PHP, I was in my second year of residency. The residency director recognized there were some things that weren’t quite right and said that I wasn’t performing to expectations. “Not being quite right” is a good term for what I was feeling. I had lack of concentration, was very cynical and extremely down. I had no energy level and couldn’t remember anything. As much as I wanted to deny I was depressed, there was no denying it. Even though I had heard about our...Read more
Wed, 11/11/2015
PHP Participant Stories
The first time I knew our state PHP existed was when I received a call from a PHP clinician after my husband had his initial appointment. We were dealing with some health issues, but also his drinking. The clinician was very warm, asked questions to help with the PHP’s assessment of my husband’s condition, and encouraged me to call back if I had questions or needed support. Despite being reassured, I was hesitant to talk much at that time. I had the notion that the PHP was connected with the...Read more
Thu, 11/05/2015
Workplace Stories
As a large medical group, we partner extensively with our state PHP to address various issues that arise. We strive to keep the concept of using the PHP pretty high profile. To encourage self-referrals, we try to make sure our chiefs and physicians are comfortable recommending PHP as a resource. The state PHP brochures are included in our new physician orientation materials and we discuss the PHP in our leader training. Certainly if we have a physician who is identified as having a drug...Read more
Wed, 11/04/2015
FSPHP Member Stories
Upon arrival to my first FSPHP meeting in 2005, I was warmly welcomed as a “new comer” to the field of physician health and PHPs. At the time the state PHP where I worked was at a grassroots level of developing a physician’s health program supported by all of organized medicine including the licensure boards. Utilization of the FSPHP Guidelines, experience and assistance of many program directors and the leadership of the FSPHP we began the arduous process of legislative development, bylaws and...Read more
Tue, 11/03/2015
PHP Participant Stories
My recovery started with a five month stay at a professional health treatment program in 1989. My disease had been all-consuming for 10 years prior and included asylums, suicide attempts, jails and loss of my medical license. I had been attending physician peer support meeting since 1985 usually fortified by lortab or tylox. On release from long-term treatment, I had a full year to establish a recovery lifestyle. I went to meetings, worked and reworked the steps, established healthy...Read more
Mon, 11/02/2015
PHP Participant Stories
My story is typical of those who have an addiction. Like others, I fell farther and farther into the depths of lying to myself and to others - that I was able to control my ability to drink, but my episodes of drinking grew more and more out of control. I was perplexed as to why I was so smart and capable, yet I could not stop myself from drinking. Things seemed hopeless. One incident in particular woke me up to the truth: I was an alcoholic, and I needed help right away. I remembered a...Read more
Sun, 11/01/2015
PHP Participant Stories
I have been acquainted with PHP since 1996 when I agreed to a five year commitment. I graduated from the program in 2001 and remained clean and sober for about another three years. My sponsor moved away and I thought that I could 'go it alone' and 'the result was nil, until I let go entirely. I agreed to another contract with the PHP in 2006, but could not stay sober. I returned to treatment for three months at a professional health treatment program in 2008 and again entered into a five year...Read more